Not that I want my blog to be all about guys..and my "relationship struggles" but that is where I'm at right now..
So I've been thinking a lot about this guy..and what went wrong..bla bla bla. It makes me angry and sad.
The last thing he said was " I need to slow down things..but I dont' want to lose you in my life just because I am not ready for a relationship...I cherish you..we're in this together..."
These words serve as only a sting to my heart right now because i haven't heard from him in almost two weeks. The part of me that longs to trust someone now feels a little less trusting. It scares me how much I fell for him. I think I even told people that I thought he might be the one. What a fool I was. Or at least that's how I feel.
I talk to people about it and the advice is.."let it go, forget it..he's not worth it.. live your life..." All fair advice but I just dont' feel like it right now. The other advice Trust God, he's faithful...always good..that feels a little better to me. Sometimes I work so hard to understand the "why" of everything...and get so frustrated. Why did God bring this man into my life so I could fall for him and care for him, just for it to end like all the rest? I dont' understand and I don't know why. What I do know and have to cling to is that God is ALWAYS ALWAYS faithful to me, even when it hurts. Even when people don't understand and just look at me with a "gosh aren't you over it yet look," God will always understand, care, and is always faithful. He is worthy of my trust. He is the ONLY one that is.